today i had training. the running bit was okay, but i kept feeling like peeing.. it's bad lah n i went to the esplanade toilet again. the storm last night did it's job well in destroying..trees broke n blocked roads, lamp-posts smashed into pieces n the rubbish bins became rubbish themselves, sprawled around. the leaves could only lie as close to the ground as possible after leaving their trees. those poor ones just kept with the waves, pushing up, then down the shoreline..
there was a dead little kitty, corpse mangled by the flies which feed on it, as it is natural to them. coach asked us to go see it n we were standing around it..but i couldn't bear to look. i've seen a dead pigeon in the drain earlier in the morning already. then coach went on to tell us the process of decomposition of a human who drowned. it's quite ghastly..but the imagery is wad i can only say is normal, natural to a person who died of water causes.
anyway, i got to row the k1 n k2 today..it's so cool. i rowed the k1 back by myself but without the seat so it's easier to balance. there were times i felt extremely wobbly n nearly capped, but thank goodness i didn't..i learnt to manage the rudder okay..but i was just moving around in zig-zags..so i looked funny lah.. but it's okay..i'm glad i took on the challenge of rowing the k1 by myself. cos i am slowly triumphing over my fear.
i guess by now many ppl knows i'm afraid of the thunder. n of course, i felt the same last night during the storm..i dun understand it, y am i afraid? n last night, i did wad i always did, crawled under my blanket n put both my pillows to each ear n pressed them hard..i couldn't sleep. i hate myself for being afraid of the thunder..but since young i've been like dat. is it called thunderphobia? but whenever this happens, i just wish that my bolster was someone whom i could hug real tight or hide beneath, like my blanket, but more solid...i used to scream..but i can't now. haiz..when will i overcome this fear?
there was a dead little kitty, corpse mangled by the flies which feed on it, as it is natural to them. coach asked us to go see it n we were standing around it..but i couldn't bear to look. i've seen a dead pigeon in the drain earlier in the morning already. then coach went on to tell us the process of decomposition of a human who drowned. it's quite ghastly..but the imagery is wad i can only say is normal, natural to a person who died of water causes.
anyway, i got to row the k1 n k2 today..it's so cool. i rowed the k1 back by myself but without the seat so it's easier to balance. there were times i felt extremely wobbly n nearly capped, but thank goodness i didn't..i learnt to manage the rudder okay..but i was just moving around in zig-zags..so i looked funny lah.. but it's okay..i'm glad i took on the challenge of rowing the k1 by myself. cos i am slowly triumphing over my fear.
i guess by now many ppl knows i'm afraid of the thunder. n of course, i felt the same last night during the storm..i dun understand it, y am i afraid? n last night, i did wad i always did, crawled under my blanket n put both my pillows to each ear n pressed them hard..i couldn't sleep. i hate myself for being afraid of the thunder..but since young i've been like dat. is it called thunderphobia? but whenever this happens, i just wish that my bolster was someone whom i could hug real tight or hide beneath, like my blanket, but more solid...i used to scream..but i can't now. haiz..when will i overcome this fear?
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